2.01.2013

Motherhood and Otherhood

Ahhh, friends.

If friends, yet ye be.

Fret not.

I have not forsaken my blog.

It's just moved from the back seat to the trailer.

Not to fear; though this motherhood thing has seemingly poached the creative being in me, really it's just gone through a slight metamorphosis:

Instead of making up blog posts these days, I make up songs.

Songs about dirty diapers.
Songs about eating vegetables.
Songs about not touching the TV.
Songs about not touching the computer.
Songs about don't touch the computer.
Songs about seriously, I'm not kidding, don't touch the computer.
Songs about mealtime, bath time, story time, prayer time and bedtime.
Songs about how mom's so tired that she can't see straight and she's only got ONE child.

I plan on transcribing these songs someday.  A platinum record in the making, I'm sure.  Actually, if it were up to my husband, I would channel such creativity into writing children's books.  Just last night, he described the painful experience it is for him to read a certain 60+ year-old book about a certain celestial orb that shows itself each night and which we salute with our good nights and jumping cows and little kittens and pairs of mittens (not forgetting the combs and brushes and bowl full of mushes).

He actually used the "h" word in his description.  And for a man who abhors the "h" word, that's saying something.  At least it said something to me:  No matter how much of a perceived literary classic you've created, there will be always someone out there who can't stand it.  Motivating thoughts, I assure you.  But...the prospect of trying my hand at children's literature is not completely off the table.

We shall see.

And that brings me to the concept of Otherhood.  Perhaps I should give myself a little credit here.  True, I only have one child.  But to bridge the gap between now and someday (prose for another post), I've taken a part-time job.  One that, gratefully, I can do from home.  But one that, nonetheless, often takes up nap time and any other spare time that I might have during the day.  Again, my hat goes off and my heart goes out to single parents.  You have my respect and my empathy.  (And if you're anything like me, your house has my complete and utter sympathy.)

And so, as I toil to come into my own in Motherhood, I find myself negotiating the world of Otherhood.   It's a curious balance.  And an ever-changing one, at that.  I can honestly say that such a balancing act has forced me to dig much deeper into myself than I heretofore have done.  (I love me some of ye Olde English.)  And I've been surprised at what I've found.  Some good surprises.  And some otherwise.  At any rate, it's been a refining process.  And, yes, just another testament that the purpose of this life is to give us experience, and that the purpose of trials is to polish the good and burn out the dross.

And perhaps I'll eventually share what could potentially be the biggest surprise of my requisite foray into Otherhood. 

The time is not yet ripe. 

But, suffice it to know that it may involve dots, frills and cows jumping over the moon.

2 comments:

kitty said...

You should write some children's books. My dad tried his hand at that. Well, he teamed with a writer and had a publisher interested in three book ideas. Dad labored for months over the introductory illustrations for each book and that is as far as he got. Fortunately he did THREE illustrations. One framed masterpiece for each of his kids.

They really are an amazing piece of work. Which is why, I suppose, he never completed the task. Each illustration had to be a 16x20. Perhaps a bit overwhelming.

So....what is your part time job? The only job I have succeeded with (while raising the kids) is piano teaching. However, I am grateful that Trev's new job affords me the opportunity to take a break from it.

Still, that feeling of needing to do something MORE with myself finds it's way back into my person at least once a month. I am proud to say that MOST of the time I am fulfilled in motherhood.

Although, when my little one goes to school in two years, I may have to sign up for a personal adventure during the daytime hours! :)

JeAnna said...

Love this, Andi. I agree, being a working-at-home mom is a wild ride!!

And also I agree with Aaron on the books thing :)

Good luck.